Tuesday, December 9, 2008
GoneRaw
The site redo for GoneRaw.com feels disastrous for me. I'm trying to trust their motivations for the redesign but- the site is so much less usable.
Correcting Course
It has been about three months that I have been off course. It seems amazing- how could this happen, knowing what I know? I have not been preparing foods that support my perfect blood sugars and my raw journey.
Lessons learned:
1. Things may fall apart during times of transition and stress. (Nilsu had to go back to school. It was a major shift around here.)
2. The issue is not what I am eating- but what I am preparing. If I get up and make cooked oatmeal for the kids- I eat cooked oatmeal. If I make baked oatmeal cookies- I eat baked oatmeal cookies. If I have fresh blueberries around, and a salad ready for dressing waiting in the fridge- I will eat blueberries and salad.
3. I still have this issue- mostly in my head- that raw "costs too much." And, "takes too much time."
So- we begin again....
I have been reading Philip McClusky's blog http://www.lovingraw.com/, and it so inspiring and beautiful.
He was recently in San Luis Obispo- a place I've spent plenty of time- and I can't believe his adventures there: "Brandie owns Smiling Dog Café, and works there along with AmyRuth. Smiling Dog Café is a branch off of Smiling Dog Yoga Studio, and did I mention it’s raw!" I am really happy for him, curious about the raw food scene in SLO. I can't wait to go there!
So- again- we begin again.
I so desperately need some time to myself. From 6:30 am - 8:30 pm I am on mommy-mode, and then I watch a little television or read. I so desperately need an hour alone. I can't remember the last time I had an hour alone. Well- at least I have a party to go to this weekend, and a date with my husband coming up. But- that's not exactly time alone.
Lessons learned:
1. Things may fall apart during times of transition and stress. (Nilsu had to go back to school. It was a major shift around here.)
2. The issue is not what I am eating- but what I am preparing. If I get up and make cooked oatmeal for the kids- I eat cooked oatmeal. If I make baked oatmeal cookies- I eat baked oatmeal cookies. If I have fresh blueberries around, and a salad ready for dressing waiting in the fridge- I will eat blueberries and salad.
3. I still have this issue- mostly in my head- that raw "costs too much." And, "takes too much time."
So- we begin again....
I have been reading Philip McClusky's blog http://www.lovingraw.com/, and it so inspiring and beautiful.
He was recently in San Luis Obispo- a place I've spent plenty of time- and I can't believe his adventures there: "Brandie owns Smiling Dog Café, and works there along with AmyRuth. Smiling Dog Café is a branch off of Smiling Dog Yoga Studio, and did I mention it’s raw!" I am really happy for him, curious about the raw food scene in SLO. I can't wait to go there!
So- again- we begin again.
I so desperately need some time to myself. From 6:30 am - 8:30 pm I am on mommy-mode, and then I watch a little television or read. I so desperately need an hour alone. I can't remember the last time I had an hour alone. Well- at least I have a party to go to this weekend, and a date with my husband coming up. But- that's not exactly time alone.
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
O.K. - Wow
I have had this amazing experience- after the Yoga Family & Friends weekend I was introduced to a friend of a friend who long story short introduced me to Mithra and Adya.The class was held in a pale golden room filled with flowers, greenery, unscented candles and a golden sculpture of a woman. I found myself sitting for hours- something I had never done before, and contemplating God. It was officially a Reiki workshop- but truth be told I just showed up because I - I don't know. I was just drawn to be there.
My husband took me to lunch today and he said- "That yoga last weekend (it's Wednesday) was really good for you. You seem so relaxed and happy." My face tends to look pintched and a hundred years old when I haven't had any sleep- and that makes me look grouchy. Uhhh-huuh. Well, I didn't do any yoga last weekend but that's beside the point. You know- today is the same as Wednesday last week- the babies were waking up all night long, etc. And I feel relaxed, peaceful and energized. And nothing has changed with my sleep schedule. And I think that my face looks a little more open and bright. And I don't want any coffee, and I don't want any sweets, or bread or meat, etc, etc. I don't need any "quick energy to get me through." It is suddenly so easy. In fact- reading through past posts- they seem awfully silly. Which is not a judgement that they are silly- I just can't relate to having written them because it (perfect blood sugars/healing) feels so easy right now. I am really OK with me having had those challenges- because anyway I think that's what most people choosing to heal themselves with diet and alternative healing (along with the work I do with my "western medicine" doctor)- it's what we all go through.
Mmmmm... possibly a little insight. Before it was as if I felt like I was fighting "the culture," "tradition aka Halloween Candy and Christmas Pumpkin Pie" and "Madison Avenue" and whatever else- it felt like that was on one side- and I was lucky enough to have my little support crew on my side and there was a struggle. How can I say this? My body is healing- and the whole universe is supporting this. The whole universe is on my side. And there is no struggle- because all time is collapsed and the healing of the entire planet is inevitable and present.
Now- how to maintain "no expectations" about this new beingness?
My husband took me to lunch today and he said- "That yoga last weekend (it's Wednesday) was really good for you. You seem so relaxed and happy." My face tends to look pintched and a hundred years old when I haven't had any sleep- and that makes me look grouchy. Uhhh-huuh. Well, I didn't do any yoga last weekend but that's beside the point. You know- today is the same as Wednesday last week- the babies were waking up all night long, etc. And I feel relaxed, peaceful and energized. And nothing has changed with my sleep schedule. And I think that my face looks a little more open and bright. And I don't want any coffee, and I don't want any sweets, or bread or meat, etc, etc. I don't need any "quick energy to get me through." It is suddenly so easy. In fact- reading through past posts- they seem awfully silly. Which is not a judgement that they are silly- I just can't relate to having written them because it (perfect blood sugars/healing) feels so easy right now. I am really OK with me having had those challenges- because anyway I think that's what most people choosing to heal themselves with diet and alternative healing (along with the work I do with my "western medicine" doctor)- it's what we all go through.
Mmmmm... possibly a little insight. Before it was as if I felt like I was fighting "the culture," "tradition aka Halloween Candy and Christmas Pumpkin Pie" and "Madison Avenue" and whatever else- it felt like that was on one side- and I was lucky enough to have my little support crew on my side and there was a struggle. How can I say this? My body is healing- and the whole universe is supporting this. The whole universe is on my side. And there is no struggle- because all time is collapsed and the healing of the entire planet is inevitable and present.
Now- how to maintain "no expectations" about this new beingness?
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Cool Stuff
http://www.radgaladventures.com/ I missed my opportunity to learn to surf.
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On an unrelated note:
Go to http://www.wonderartprogram.com/ to learn more about Caroline.
http://www.yogartretreats.blogspot.com/ to find out more about Kristen and Caroline's Family & Friends Sangha Weekend.
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On an unrelated note:
Go to http://www.wonderartprogram.com/ to learn more about Caroline.
http://www.yogartretreats.blogspot.com/ to find out more about Kristen and Caroline's Family & Friends Sangha Weekend.
Yes, it's that Propaganda
When people want to know why I am opposed to the majority of meat eating, I show them this:
http://www.goveg.com/factoryFarming.asp
I've been hearing that there are producers that are more humane. That gets into- how humane is it to eat another sentient being? But- O.K. I don't have so much of a problem with that. But current factory conditions... Most of us have this fantasy cultivated in childhood (I cultivate it in my own children, even now) that the pigs and cows live happily on farms with benevolent farmers looking after them. (This is their idea, I imagine, as they move their little wooden animals around in the recycled pink plastic barn.)
I'm guessing this "humane meat" is that stuff that sells at Whole Paycheck for $400 a pound. Well- if people did buy that meat and then use it to "flavor" stir-frys and salads- then it would probably be a huge step forward for health and sanity. But- I honestly just don't have much of a taste for it.
http://www.goveg.com/factoryFarming.asp
I've been hearing that there are producers that are more humane. That gets into- how humane is it to eat another sentient being? But- O.K. I don't have so much of a problem with that. But current factory conditions... Most of us have this fantasy cultivated in childhood (I cultivate it in my own children, even now) that the pigs and cows live happily on farms with benevolent farmers looking after them. (This is their idea, I imagine, as they move their little wooden animals around in the recycled pink plastic barn.)
I'm guessing this "humane meat" is that stuff that sells at Whole Paycheck for $400 a pound. Well- if people did buy that meat and then use it to "flavor" stir-frys and salads- then it would probably be a huge step forward for health and sanity. But- I honestly just don't have much of a taste for it.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Update
After re-reading my last post. Well- I certainly have not given up fruit. But I eat fewer apples. I used to have grated apple, blueberries, sunflower seeds, banana and nut mylk for breakfast. But just blueberries, nuts and seeds works better for my sugars, and I've gotten used to it now and it is totally not a big deal. I've been doing some cooked whole foods- brown rice, lentils- doesn't work for me in large amounts. I've been eating some meat dishes- especially those prepared by Nilsu which are delicious and filled with veggies- great blood sugars, and high satiety.
Tomorrow I go to Yoga Camp where it'll be four days of raw foods, meditation, and yoga. Plus just a lovely time with my little yoginis. I will meet Sage and spend a little time with the powerful women, Caroline and Kristen, who put this thing together. I hope this coming weekend is beautiful and gentle and relaxing. When the kiddos wake up in the middle of the night and I'm not getting as much sleep as I like- Bikram can feel impossible. I've been drinking so much coffee. Tomorrow it's probably cold-turkey on that. I guess I better start glugging water now! We're having gorgeous hot weather, maybe the kids will get to play outside.
Tomorrow I go to Yoga Camp where it'll be four days of raw foods, meditation, and yoga. Plus just a lovely time with my little yoginis. I will meet Sage and spend a little time with the powerful women, Caroline and Kristen, who put this thing together. I hope this coming weekend is beautiful and gentle and relaxing. When the kiddos wake up in the middle of the night and I'm not getting as much sleep as I like- Bikram can feel impossible. I've been drinking so much coffee. Tomorrow it's probably cold-turkey on that. I guess I better start glugging water now! We're having gorgeous hot weather, maybe the kids will get to play outside.
Sunday, May 25, 2008
There is a Cure for Diabetes
A letter to the universe straight from my heart-
Aaaarrrrghhh.... I'm loving the book There is a Cure for Diabetes. But- the cure really doesn't allow high-glycemic fruits???
I just had an apple with some raw sesame butter. Delicious. If that had to be celery with sesame butter- I think I would need something to balance the bitterness (mix some stevia into the sesame butter?)
Anyway- I am serious about doing this. I generally feel so healthy and energized. But it is really hard. And- it is all hard. No coffee is hard. No fruit is insanely hard. It comes down to vegetables, nuts and seeds. (He has a few recommended grains and beans- but for me those are only sometimes foods. See my earlier posts regarding whole foods to know why. I have already gone that route and my blood sugars were not perfect.)
I have a big glass or two of juice every morning: celery, cucumber, spinach, parsley, ginger and a big salad with everything for lunch. I've been eating "whole food, but often cooked, for dinner." I'm OK with that- but see myself mentally preparing to move away from it. But - no fruit? What the hell? (OK- so he allows blueberries and raspberries, etc) but short of placing raspberries on a real homemade shortbread crust topped with a layer of sugary raspberry jam, and serving it with a cup of coffee to cut all that sweetness- this is feeling like major deprivation. Just saying. Aaarrrgghh...
I wrote to Russell James and told him how much I appreciate him for creating the beautiful food he does. (He doesn't know me.) But- he is such an inspiration!!
I really want to do this and it's going to require some major shift.
Shift.
When I feel like yelling "sh*t" I should just yell SHIFT!
Ruth
P.S. If someone is serious about curing their diabetes through raw foods- actually there is a lot of support out there. Dr Gabriel Cousins book is wonderful. My husband is so awesome!!! He is phenomenally supportive of me (he just called me from the store, they are OUT OF CELERY.) My friend Vanessa- thank you for turning me on to this in the first place. My dearest Josie- again- just holding the biggest possible vision for me. My dear brother- totally supportive. I have to say- in that I am so lucky. It is sicko to read reviews of There is a Cure for Diabetes at Amazon where people say their family and friends are not supportive. Time for new friends, time to talk about support!
I'd love to offer support to anyone on this journey, and make some more wonderful friends who are living these choices- I know I am drawing that to myself right now...
Aaaarrrrghhh.... I'm loving the book There is a Cure for Diabetes. But- the cure really doesn't allow high-glycemic fruits???
I just had an apple with some raw sesame butter. Delicious. If that had to be celery with sesame butter- I think I would need something to balance the bitterness (mix some stevia into the sesame butter?)
Anyway- I am serious about doing this. I generally feel so healthy and energized. But it is really hard. And- it is all hard. No coffee is hard. No fruit is insanely hard. It comes down to vegetables, nuts and seeds. (He has a few recommended grains and beans- but for me those are only sometimes foods. See my earlier posts regarding whole foods to know why. I have already gone that route and my blood sugars were not perfect.)
I have a big glass or two of juice every morning: celery, cucumber, spinach, parsley, ginger and a big salad with everything for lunch. I've been eating "whole food, but often cooked, for dinner." I'm OK with that- but see myself mentally preparing to move away from it. But - no fruit? What the hell? (OK- so he allows blueberries and raspberries, etc) but short of placing raspberries on a real homemade shortbread crust topped with a layer of sugary raspberry jam, and serving it with a cup of coffee to cut all that sweetness- this is feeling like major deprivation. Just saying. Aaarrrgghh...
I wrote to Russell James and told him how much I appreciate him for creating the beautiful food he does. (He doesn't know me.) But- he is such an inspiration!!
I really want to do this and it's going to require some major shift.
Shift.
When I feel like yelling "sh*t" I should just yell SHIFT!
Ruth
P.S. If someone is serious about curing their diabetes through raw foods- actually there is a lot of support out there. Dr Gabriel Cousins book is wonderful. My husband is so awesome!!! He is phenomenally supportive of me (he just called me from the store, they are OUT OF CELERY.) My friend Vanessa- thank you for turning me on to this in the first place. My dearest Josie- again- just holding the biggest possible vision for me. My dear brother- totally supportive. I have to say- in that I am so lucky. It is sicko to read reviews of There is a Cure for Diabetes at Amazon where people say their family and friends are not supportive. Time for new friends, time to talk about support!
I'd love to offer support to anyone on this journey, and make some more wonderful friends who are living these choices- I know I am drawing that to myself right now...
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